Nightmare in Melbourne

Well it's about time I updated. On the 1st of February, I arrived in Melbourne. Cold shivering and not knowing where exactly to go, me and a friend, Jon just decided to get our pick up service to send us to Global Village student accommodation. We were not looking for a long term place but rather a place to live in while we hunt for apartments. The rent was about $800 per week for a 2 bedroom apartment which was priced ridiculously high! Apparently they only give lower rent to people who stay longer term. If we sign a contract to live there for 6 months, we'll pay about $360 per week. You see the difference? We decided not to take it but had nowhere else to go.

For me I could always stick with my initial plan which was to bunk in with Edna while doing my house hunting. But I can't possibly leave Jon right? He supposedly cancelled his accommodation because 'I told him to' according to him. I made it entirely clear that he should only cancel when we get global.

Luckily for us we had a saviour and to this date he still is my saviour. I met this guy Jake from the pre-departure seminar provided by IDP Singapore. He was the President of the Student Association of Singapore in Victoria. He told me that if I had no way out, I could get a key from his friend Ching since we will arrive 12 hours earlier than him. We could crash at his apartment which was empty because his housemates moved out.

I've been busy looking for a decent apartment here and the rental rates are ridiculous. Apartment hunting is really tough in Melbourne. Back home, the real estate agents try to lease out apartments as soon as they can but over here, we have to literally hunt the agents down! So here's how it works, these real estate agents don't get paid on a commission basis, they are on payroll! So why work so hard if you're going to get paid anyway? I can just take my own sweet time to lease out the apartments. Who's to blame? I mean they're humans afterall right? The system is seriously screwed.

Still Here

Sharon was here. I'm still alive. Those of you who wished I was dead, well tough luck. Will update again 'soon'.

A Day In The Life

Had a sudden urge to blog even though I know there would be no substantial content in this post. A mellow day in the life of a self-indulgent bitch. I'm feeling so disconnected today. I've had better days. I just got back from Peace Centre. Printed my name cards for the graduation exhibition. 100 pieces for 18 bucks. Quite a bargain. Been contemplating if I should design a display holder for the cards. LAZY!

So I was talking to my Mom earlier about my nicotine addiction. She wants me to get rid of it before I go over to Melbourne. Being an ignorant Singaporean, I would whine about how our government is constantly increasing tobacco taxes. Little did I know that the Aussie government is doing the exact same thing. I'm not about to pay that much for this disgustingly comforting addiction.

I'm thinking about applying for jobs to save up a little for 'emergencies' when I'm over there. Been considering some programmes at Gasi. Their Internship USA or Internship New Zealand sounds like fun. It'll definitely be a good experience. Plus it'll give me a warming up period for Melbourne. My mom's unsure about USA, she probably has a hard time letting her 'little girl' be that far away from home. My dad has a friend in New Zealand, so she's pretty cool about it. But imagine if I get to go to the States. I'll be earning 1 1/2 times more and I'll be doing what I love! New Zealand's cool too but I heard it gets so boring, you'll age faster there.

If I decide to go for this. I wouldn't be spending as much time as I would like to, with my family. Am still considering though. For now I need to get started on the bloody Questionnaire (which I still think is totally unnecessary) for RMIT. Shit! I've been putting it on hold for 2 whole months now. I still miss him.

Cynic Says :

I would like to try and erase the past two weeks of my life. Due to certain circumstances, details were left out. I’m tired, of unhappy ever after endings. I’m tired, of make believe heros. And I’m tired, of taking back what I have given. I don't even know where to begin. I guess I was reminded of why I've been single for as long as I can remember. The whole 'guy drama' has seriously drained me out emotionally. Need a freaking break from it.

In some weird way, I'm kinda glad it didn't last. Although sometimes in situations like these, you would start to wonder what could've been if you took the chance. But I must say, I've learnt to deal with moving on pretty well. Maybe it's because I have become so cynical towards men.

Oprah once said, if a guy sweeps you off your feet, don't fall. I couldn't agree more. Don't fall in love instead walk into it. Have you ever met someone who's way out of your league and have him whisper sweet nothings in your ear? As the saying goes, 'If it's too good to be true, it probably is'. It just seems too easy. The best advice is to not to 'give' too much. Nothing is scarier than when it seems as though everything is going your way. For it is then, when you actually have him, you would have something to loose.

He is ambitious, independent and smart. He basically has all the qualities I look for in a guy. Definitely a catch. But I guess such qualities come with an array of commitment issues. Plus there were other issues adding on to this, which led him to his skepticism to be emotionally attached.

When it first hit me, I felt overwhelming sadness or disappointment. No idea what it was yet. But I've been blessed with an amazing ability to block out emotions and not indulge in self-pity. I am actually pretty glad that things are on the back burner now. He was very convincing about not feeling this way about a girl in a very long time. But it took awhile for me to realise that if he wants to try and be friends (can't see how it works if you like someone, then again it could just be me), maybe he was just not that into me to begin with.