Cynic Says :
I would like to try and erase the past two weeks of my life. Due to certain circumstances, details were left out. I’m tired, of unhappy ever after endings. I’m tired, of make believe heros. And I’m tired, of taking back what I have given. I don't even know where to begin. I guess I was reminded of why I've been single for as long as I can remember. The whole 'guy drama' has seriously drained me out emotionally. Need a freaking break from it.
In some weird way, I'm kinda glad it didn't last. Although sometimes in situations like these, you would start to wonder what could've been if you took the chance. But I must say, I've learnt to deal with moving on pretty well. Maybe it's because I have become so cynical towards men.
Oprah once said, if a guy sweeps you off your feet, don't fall. I couldn't agree more. Don't fall in love instead walk into it. Have you ever met someone who's way out of your league and have him whisper sweet nothings in your ear? As the saying goes, 'If it's too good to be true, it probably is'. It just seems too easy. The best advice is to not to 'give' too much. Nothing is scarier than when it seems as though everything is going your way. For it is then, when you actually have him, you would have something to loose.
He is ambitious, independent and smart. He basically has all the qualities I look for in a guy. Definitely a catch. But I guess such qualities come with an array of commitment issues. Plus there were other issues adding on to this, which led him to his skepticism to be emotionally attached.
When it first hit me, I felt overwhelming sadness or disappointment. No idea what it was yet. But I've been blessed with an amazing ability to block out emotions and not indulge in self-pity. I am actually pretty glad that things are on the back burner now. He was very convincing about not feeling this way about a girl in a very long time. But it took awhile for me to realise that if he wants to try and be friends (can't see how it works if you like someone, then again it could just be me), maybe he was just not that into me to begin with.
In some weird way, I'm kinda glad it didn't last. Although sometimes in situations like these, you would start to wonder what could've been if you took the chance. But I must say, I've learnt to deal with moving on pretty well. Maybe it's because I have become so cynical towards men.
Oprah once said, if a guy sweeps you off your feet, don't fall. I couldn't agree more. Don't fall in love instead walk into it. Have you ever met someone who's way out of your league and have him whisper sweet nothings in your ear? As the saying goes, 'If it's too good to be true, it probably is'. It just seems too easy. The best advice is to not to 'give' too much. Nothing is scarier than when it seems as though everything is going your way. For it is then, when you actually have him, you would have something to loose.
He is ambitious, independent and smart. He basically has all the qualities I look for in a guy. Definitely a catch. But I guess such qualities come with an array of commitment issues. Plus there were other issues adding on to this, which led him to his skepticism to be emotionally attached.
When it first hit me, I felt overwhelming sadness or disappointment. No idea what it was yet. But I've been blessed with an amazing ability to block out emotions and not indulge in self-pity. I am actually pretty glad that things are on the back burner now. He was very convincing about not feeling this way about a girl in a very long time. But it took awhile for me to realise that if he wants to try and be friends (can't see how it works if you like someone, then again it could just be me), maybe he was just not that into me to begin with.
random rants @ 1:14 AM
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