Reality Check

This is it for me. Busted this semester. So much to do, so little time. Well, I had more time before. But see the more time you have, the more you procrastinate. At least that's how it works for me. What is happening to me? I've never been this lazy since my high school days. I can't blame my lecturer. It's totally not her fault. This just doesn't feel right. Last semester I was sleep deprived 24/7. Now, its seems like I can get all the sleep I want.

Sometimes I feel like kicking that 'pink dolphin' in the ass. He finishes his work on time and it isn't even crappy. Someone kick me in the ass. My campaign is all over the place. It's in sucha mess, I just wanna start over. I deserve a kick in the head. But from now on it should be payback time, for last term's slacking. All work no play. Who am I kidding?

I'm unmotivated, I have no stamina. The drive isn't there anymore. Vanished. *Poof* I need to be inspired. I'm not even at the stage where the workflow comes naturally. Still at the brainstorming part and right now, it sounds freaking scary.

I'm so frustrated. If could smash my brain or stick my nails into it to sqeeze something out of it. I totally would. Mediocre just wouldn't do it for me. I need a brilliant concept! I'm not even close to being productive. With less than half a campaign at this point, I can officially proclaim my death sentence. I'm entering the dreadful state of panic.